Was it just religious flirting on your part?
The same words come from both our mouths
but I only know mine are true.
i've been like a pendulum.
i swing from one side to the other at intervals.
i don't want it to be that way.
i know for sure i want to stick to your side.
but fluctuations just keep happening
i don't know if it's your games that got me confused
or do i just have an overactive mind that always causes chaos
but i feel like a fool.
sometimes i ask myself, am i waiting for you?
what am i to you?
will you ever have the guts to tell me
that i'm nothing but a tool?
will you ever love me, truly, madly, deeply?
i know i have, and i still do.
i am absolutely disgusting when it comes to love.
i know, i'm sorry.
one of the dogs i know passed away last week.
my heart's broken even tho i didn't dote on that pup more than the rest of the dogs.
i tried really hard to be chirpy and chose my words carefully
but i guess i should just not have talked about anything to remind
the owner about it.
i hate the feeling of being helpless,
i hate it when people i care about are upset,
and i can't do anything to make them smile.*
i hate it that i can never make things right.
i hate it that my mind is never, really made up.
i also hate people who are unappreciative of me,
making me feel like a fool.
sometimes i just want to scream FUCKYOU to some people's faces.
2:17 AM
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