met up with
these girls (and one's
boyfriend).
its been a really long time since it happened,
what with 2 girls in different countries and the hectic schedules of school + work,
i don't even see jenn that often anymore.
i miss a lot of my friends,
it's when i start to feel neglected that i realise that
i've neglected many of my friends
to a point whereby i don't even have many close friends anymore.
sometimes i think that's sad, i think of the many people and things that i've given up.
i think of the person that i've given up everything for
and i question myself if all's been really worth it.
sometimes i resent
you.
but when the mist clears, i know i have no one to blame but myself.
at the end of the day, regrets or none,
i remind myself that every step i've taken with whoever, towards whatever
they are risks that i just have to bear consequences for.
life for me is about attempting to live without regrets,
but most times i try too hard that i lose grip and breakdown -
i lose my sanity, my common sense, my reasoning.
the revelation:
it was never about falling in love.
i have fallen off the edges of sanity.
i struggle to regain my place
... only to discover your rescindment of our
love contract.
what bound us together before had dissipated into nothingness.
nothing is the same now, everything is facade.
how did we let this happen?
i no longer believe that i was all to blame..
Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did Yesterday"
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did Yesterday" - My Chemical Romance; I Don't Love Youi have no reason to mourn for anything.,
because i should know better, that nothing goes on forever.
2:21 AM
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