fucking tired,
fucking disappointed,
fucking lazy.
it's not that i didn't want to go to school on time.
now why's it that i can
never get up on time?
alarms don't work.
even my mom yelling at me to wake up doesn't work.
i always seem to be able to come up with something to allow myself to get back to sleep.
yes i know i want to be excelling in all the rest of my subs.but everytime, during the moments before i gain total consciousness,
i fight so hard to get back to sleep.
maybe its because i have so much dread for everything in my life now.
maybe its because there's nothing much that i can look forward to,
because i know nothing will ever be secure.
i think my day just got ruined because of the very stupid dream i had.
of all people, i had to dream about
you.
it was a nightmare.
9:08 AM
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