i think i figured it out.
i really think so.
i think such bad waves hit me from time to time.
and when i let my guard down,
i get swept away pretty badly.
my life gets wrecked up because i kinda believe that it would be.
and i know why im losing grip
its about the thing i haven't doing.
its about how ive not been living.
i always feel like people let me down.
or im not good enough for this and that.
when you put your heart and soul into people,
you tend to get disappointed because you expect things from others.
everyone has different ways of living and thinking
so even if you get really happy one time
the next moment youre down for the very next thing
but if you put your heart into doing something
its different. because only you will be able to let yourself down.
as long as youve given your 1OOpercent
you wont be letting yourself down.
it'll be up to you!
i will keep my health in check so that i will get back on track for tennis.
it will be top priority, favourite hobby, favourite thing.
im sound, once again.
i hope, this time, for good. (:
2:27 AM
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