• last year, December, it was my 1st time over at ur condo, because 2 of my tennis team mates are also staying there, and our annual tennis club bbq was held there. it was the first time i headed over to ur place, and that night i got drunk and was full of tears crying for the bastard ex. i was still with the ex and i didnt even know you, then.
• thereafter i went to ur place a couple of times for tennis. and finally sometime in february, when wangxi asked me to join her and you for hanging out before she left for brisbane, imagine my surprise when i realised that this condo is where you stay. there was just something about u. i still remember us sitting by the wading pool, wangxi and i flipping the mag, and you snapping our pictures only to have me try and grab the camera from you - i was sorta on my way to flirting already.

how quick time has passed, and soon, on the 25th, we'd have been together for like, 4 months. we've progressed really fast, so fast really. things seem to get heated up pretty quickly now, sometimes even boring. i hold your hand now, but the feeling is so different. sometimes, its so hard for us to smile. things seem to feel wrong. this feeling is weird.

despite all that, theres this feeling in my heart that tells me that i want to be with you, and i want you to be happy. and im working on trying to do that man. its so difficult because sometimes to do that it clashes with my self opinions.. but i guess i love you so..

thank you for last night honey. this may be mushy but knowing who i am i am not afraid of being publicly affectionate. PIRATES was extremely entertaining, and it just felt so comfortable to have you by my side. thank you for giving up sleep for that. so did i man. but i just want to let you know that i totally appreciate it. youre quite funny tho you always do things and then get grumpy about it. still, its okay. silly boy. remember next time if you dont want to do things just DON'T do them.
love you loads, TommyLeeHx.

i am angry. about alot of things.
things like i msged a couple of the primary sch people and dsicovered
that some of them didnt fucking bother saving my number the last time.
so when i msged them asking them stuf they went WHO ARE YOU.
fuck what was the contact list for? i guess it was for people to choose who they wanted to save in their list. selective. too bad i was out of the list for them.

i have this friend who knows of all the shit that the ex has done, but still refuses to take my side. this is just like you know what?`the incident whereby this friend of mine flipped just because i stepped on her shoe by accident. i will never forget that incident and i was pretty angry with jenn for refusing to take my side because i knew i wasn't in the wrong. but im over that issue. however i can't tolerate ppl who refuse to take my side when they know that injustice has been done to me. thats just fucked up. in fact i think ure fucked up because you take side with a bastard. if u have a brain you'd at least feel angry for me for whats been done to me. but oh well whatever. yes whatever i shall stop harping over it.