im just sitting around
hoping for the pain in my abdomen to go away.
i hope its just gastritis and nothing else
im so afraid that its something worse.
ive been taking my medicines.
maybe not instant relief but slight improvement?
the thing is i dont even know if there is slight improvement
in my condition because the pain comes and goes.
and there are times when im in such pain
but i just bear with it.
theres no point moaning and moaning and making everyone worried
why does this have to happen now?
WHY?
yes i can't wait for exams to be over
but this sucks big time.
i can't study properly
i have
NO MOTIVATION TO STUDY.
i just want to lie down
even using the laptop now i have to lie on my belly.
deprivation of my favourite foods.
maybe my stomach's trying to remind me again
that my intake of foods is pretty unhealthy
and i never have regular meals.
i think i better watch how and what i eat because
my digestive health has
NEVER BEEN GOOD.
now its not lookin forward to exams end
its looking forward to me gettin well soon.
im also feeling sad for those indonesians who're suffering from
the earthquake. i had some bad dreams when i was having
my naps.
i hope those who've lost their loved ones be strong.
life is such a bitch.
i am so weak now
im in such pain now and nothing and no one can help me
i dont want people to worry but then
i also dont like the feeling of no one caring
i feel so unloved
no one can be bothered
im so contradicting
whatever
10:30 PM
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