> Addited: yay Weezer on the blog. Play kept cracking up pissed me off.
i miss tommy. its only 6 hours since i last heard from him.
i miss you. 25th is comin! why must my paper have to fall on anniversary day?
im looking forward to the day papers end
more time with tommy maddie karen
earn money spend money
try and be a good daughter cos i realised that
my folks really love me i think they do!

kay i go be a good daughter now i go and study.

Sxling at dontknowwhattime xoxoxo








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amazing.
you see the things ppl search for?
funny hahaha.
i mean what can a blog like mine offer?
sizzling chat?!
sweettalk.com?
sweettalk.com's actually a joke between me & tommy
hahaha.


my posts are always so meaningless.

well anw i just started my day
with bombay toasts again.
i think im gettin tired of the bread+egg+condensedmilk+sugar
combination. so i shall stop eating this for quite a while i think.

this applies to everything right?
too much of a good thing and you get sick of it.

but then im not sick of tommy yet.
i dont want to ever get sick of tommy!




i had one of those dreams again.




* * *



i dreamt of you, i dreamt that we were reconciled.
i dreamt that we were happily chatting,
and altho most of the times i thot you were quite a bitch,
i was quite happy to see this little bitch smiling.
the you that i dreamt about was who you were a few years ago.
who you were a few years ago- sweet, caring, fun and adorable.
there were always times i wished i was just like you
and i was pretty sure you influenced me quite alot.
maybe ure stil the same but i stopped receiving the royalty a few years ago.
i think its dumb. that i actually considered you a close friend.
i bet you never felt the same.
whats going on now only shows how strong our friendship was.
but i think the bond broke long when someone told you that i liked one of ur ex.
i think i did but then i never had any intention of snatching. it was just a crush
and its not like i could snatch?! and why'd i want to do that im not that bitchy.

and then about going mad at ur workplace
i wasn't even the only one who was mad,
but i guess i was the only one who blogged about it.
but then it wasnt even targeted at you.
besides, i got ur shit treatment way before that.
i always ask myself why?
what did i do? someone told me its because i hung out too often with your friends?!

i mean if that was really the case
if i knew,
i wouldn't have hung out with them at all
but its not like if i didnt hang out with them
you'd hang out with me back then
i wasn't cool enough for you
never will be



i guess this wil always bother me
i thought it went away..
but the resentment i have will never go away
when i see you i pretend its okay
but it will never be okay


never be okay because there will always be dreams
that will always haunt me



im okay, im okay
just feel shitty its not the first time anyway.
oh and its not like you care

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I'm Ling
- and I'm gone
again.