as i sat in the hall during the last 15 minutes,
i could hear myself screaming.
no i wasn't really screaming out loud but
i could hear it.
how do i say this? nevermind.
fucked up im not goin to allow myself
to end up in a situation like that again.
not for the rest of the papers.
i thought about a lot of things after the poa.
life really sucks for me now, i think.
i never seem to do the right things,
and i always end up feeling upset.
i seem to be breaking rules all the time,
be it mine, or others.
fucking annoying.
maybe its time to do the right things,
for myself, and for others.
i know i can't seem to do what i say most of the time,
but ive at least identified my problems.
like how maddie always tells me, identifying is the first step.
my second step is trying.
it still goes back to learning
how to love myself better.
i think i deserve to be loved by
myself,
and not taking for granted others' love for me,
and not expecting others to love me.
i have alot of expectations and with loadsa that
comes loadsa disappointments.
they are inevitable but im sick of this feeling.
so im goin to expect less, so that i get surprised all time round!
no more empty talk.
you'll see. we'll see.
I LOVE THE SONG THATS PLAYING ON MY BLOG.> add: soph's post is fantastic! the jc period. i broke almost all the rules that she broke. and i thought i was the latecoming queen. class at 8, reach at 3pm just for one lesson hahahahaha. oh yeah MI:3 was not bad quite funny as well.
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