well you can tell.
i been editing my template and playin around wit everything.
its just the stiff aching shoulder its spoiling all my mood.
the only thing i feel like doing is to be wit tommy.
be in his arms.
whos tommy? tommy's my boyfriend.
tommy lee's my boyfriend.
tommy lee hx.
AHAHAHAHAHAHA sudddenly i think it cool
to call him by the nickname his champions gave him.
ive been surfing friendster,
checking out this rich posse.
they're like all gorgeous and like party animals or something.
and they are so cool its like i want to be like how they are.
yeah its pathetic but thats just the way it is.
materialism gettin to me perhaps?
im not just all about partying. or maybe i am?
nah. but then its just that i just dont like way im living now i guess.
im not exactly doing what i want to do and living the way i want to live.
maybe i need to learn to be satisfied with what i have
and be grateful for all there is.
joseph's right. the influence is all around.
its not that i dont know. im not dumb.
i just refused to grow up and i think im still refusing.
and one thing is i really thought i'd never end up being materialistic.
thats why i kinda refuse to grow up
because materialism is half of realism in the society we live in.
well anw today i bought SALONPAS 3O, and YOKOYOKO AMMELTZ.
i bought both just in case.
no risks anymore after tigerbalm shoulder and neck rub failed me.
and tigerbalm is damn freeking troublesome i have to rub it on.
salonpas i just have to slap it on,
yokoyoko is like a glue bottle so its effortless application.
can you imagine when im old
im gonna have aches all over i'll just whine everyday.
i have rheumatism anyway. surprised?
i had it since 4. hokay its kinda like rheumatism
my doctors couldn't identify the reason why my knee joints hurt like hell.
later on during my primary sch years i realised that
everytime after it hurts like hell, i grow taller. HAHAHAHA.
so well now the aching in my knee joints dont occur that often (no more growing)
but sometimes it happens on rainy days.
my body's got loads of problems.
i hate that.
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