im not feeling very happy.
i hate uncertainty but its all around isn't it?
its whether you want to care or not but
then for a person like me i care about all the stupid fucks in the world.
NOT HAPPY at all.
ive been uZapping more often
so i hope to see some results.
ive been eating less as well
i saw the thunder thighs the night before last night
and i freaked out so bad i was like whiny and pissing people off.
i hope there are no side effects of uZapping too much.
recently ive been bloghopping alot.
i realise that my command of english is really garbage
as compared to those
potato people.
i used to think my grammar's not bad but now i know
it's like shit shit shit shit shit.
not to mention my poor vocabulary. ohsopoor.
i want to be able to write like
KESHiA.
i read too much of Hanx's blog im beginning
to want to type like him no more punctuations ha.
studying has been really unproductive today
i just keep thinking about so many things.
like i always say i want to be happy because life is short
but then i think too much into how to be happy
and then start feeling troubled. crazy.
it's 2:O3 i think i better start planning how my day goes
so that at least i have something to follow.
> wake at 1Oam and prepare to go Kovan Macs to study.
ALONE. have breakfast/brunch then set out must reach there before 12 noon.
> breaktime at 3pm then resume eating notes.
> meet joel for dinnerat 6pm.
> split ways at 93Opm.
> resume studying by 1O3Opm.
> sleep at 1am Sunday.
suddenly i resent myself and my dad for allowing me to study at sim.
i should have just gone to mdis or something.
or at least took mass communications as my course.
FUCKED UP! its too late to regret yeah i know
but its something that will bother me for life.
i wonder what you're doing now.
you must have forgotten about me.
HAVE YOU?! YES!
not happy so shutup.
1:59 AM
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